Good Morning Sunshine.

2010-12-09T02:31:00.002+08:00

I think i was quite a shocker last year losing so much weight till people cant really get the image out of their heads.

But im different now, time to be truthful ok? (:

im not skinny, im normal.

goodnight.

2010-12-07T14:13:00.002+08:00

I COULDVE EARNED ANOTHER 60 TODAY BUT I BLEW IT.

I BLEW IT.

MONEY. FLY RIGHT OUT THE WINDOW.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

2010-12-06T21:52:00.001+08:00

You know I may hate you for awhile but I still hope to see your name in the online list.

but then again, THANKS FOR RUINING MY NIGHT.

2010-12-06T21:47:00.002+08:00

Takes quite alot to please everyone...

But Im not even going to try.

Ah well work again tmr.

2010-12-06T04:43:00.004+08:00

Hi. I'm baaaaaaaaa aaaack. :]

2010-06-03T00:30:00.002+08:00

well, time for a fresh start elsewhere, thats not in the virtual world.

2010-04-24T02:04:00.002+08:00

honestly, i dont know what i did or where i went wrong.

but it feels like we're struggling to make things work all the time.

why cant we just live.

i love you.

2010-04-18T13:33:00.002+08:00

And I thought, be still my heart
This could be a brand new start, with you.
And it will be clear
If I wake up and you're still here with me in the morning.

2010-04-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

im dragging my heart across the floor.

2010-04-10T17:49:00.002+08:00

i may be a scheming bitch sometimes but i never actually included anyone in my little schemes.
especially not anyone i love.
but i guess youre different.

2010-04-05T01:42:00.001+08:00

i can't be pursuing everything in life.
i'm a weak person, and i give up easily.
i give up. easily.

2010-03-28T00:22:00.001+08:00

dear god.
please downsize me.

2010-03-07T20:33:00.001+08:00

im sick of being like this.
time for major change.
):

2010-02-16T00:56:00.001+08:00

someday... someday things will all fall into place.

2010-01-16T02:16:00.000+08:00

JAMBU KE TAK? HAHAHAHA SHITTTTTTTTT

2009-12-25T19:29:00.000+08:00

Feels nice to be emotionless.
Stoner1991. out.

2009-12-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

because you are going to be my longest ever.
(:
love you naim!

2009-12-11T02:10:00.001+08:00

alright i have to focus... on the important things in life... :D

2009-12-07T23:58:00.001+08:00

the irony of actually being MORE busy during the holidays...
im so out of touch with everything except the bf the bike and the mom. bye world.

2009-12-04T00:29:00.001+08:00

learn to deal. and then you can learn. (:

2009-11-29T05:28:00.000+08:00

2009-11-27T01:59:00.000+08:00

http://lookbook.nu/look/164251-Heartbreak-Make-Me-A-Dancer

i just love. this. girl.

i do shit like this when i'm bored.

2009-11-22T02:13:00.000+08:00

2009-11-02T23:25:00.001+08:00

Dear god, zap my fats away
ZAAAAP!

2009-11-01T16:17:00.002+08:00

I secretly want to hug my mom and tell her dont go to work and leave me alone at night because i need someone to talk to and make me happy.
I secretly want to apologize to my family and friends for being a bitch and causing hurt to everyone.
I secretly want to go for piggyback rides on my dad like i did when i was 4.
I want to spend the night talking to my boyfriend and pretend a's is over.
Not so secret anymore.

2009-10-31T17:13:00.000+08:00

"Two men went up to the temple to pray, the one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector.

The Pharisee, standing by himself, was praying these things: 'O God, I thank you because I am not just like the rest of humanity: swindlers, unjust ones, adulterers, or even like this tax collector. I fast twice during the week. I tithe everything that I acquire.'

But the tax collector, stopping far off, did not even want to lift his eyes toward heaven, but instead he was beating his breast saying, 'O God be merciful to me, the sinner!'

I say to you all that this one went down to his house justified rather than the other, because all who exalt themselves will be humbled, and all who humble themselves will be exalted."

I actually went to look this up. Haha.

2009-10-27T00:56:00.001+08:00

2009-10-13T21:45:00.001+08:00

(L), still. after so long. :D

2009-10-07T20:11:00.002+08:00

prelims failed to give me a security blanket, like it did back in 07.
i feel so naked, like going to war without an armour.
alright. ): i think i can deal.

2009-09-28T01:05:00.000+08:00

Fun fact #1: I don't trust people.

2009-09-28T00:39:00.001+08:00

PRACTISE WHAT YOU PREACH, LOSER.

2009-09-27T04:41:00.002+08:00

How do you love yourself?

2009-09-26T03:50:00.002+08:00

dah. jadi. burong. hantu.

/edit
something just hit me...
my days of SCHOOLGIRL IN UNIFORM will be over in two weeks time. hello graduation!

2009-09-25T01:52:00.002+08:00

if im london levi, id sit in front of the mirror everyday for an hour straight. haaahaaaaa

2009-09-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

There's no reason I should breathe unless you're in the air.

2009-09-20T06:29:00.000+08:00

2009-09-20T05:55:00.000+08:00

haiyah whatever lah.

cause sometimes i think you're godsent (:

2009-09-09T00:30:00.000+08:00

devoid of emotions

2009-09-06T03:42:00.000+08:00

prelims in a week, raye in two weeks, and a's in like, 2 months?
but yet i feel... nothing.
instead, i felt really happy today when i got myself 3 of my favourite (must add: waterproof) pens, a new ruler, and a 55cents eraser.
HAHAHA school is making me stupid and childish. yeah, stupid and childish like that.
oh.my.allah.

2009-09-05T05:18:00.003+08:00

study smart kids, not study hard!
my body clock is seriously... not a clock anymore. its malfunctioning.
hahaahahahahaha
and i cannot binge eat so much, its very unhealthy.
eye bags are growing, nursing a big stomach, i'm running out of breath cause i'm too full, my skin is becoming worse with all the clogging and shit although i don't need moisturizer like mr eczema LOL LOL ok inside joke
alright.
let'sssssssssssssssssss strike a balance
and i shall do so by praying (plus no mafia wars...) . bye all xxxxxxxxxxx
(the boyfriend is suddenly blogging alot more than usual... he must be really bored waiting for my replies HAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAA OK PRASAN!!!!!)

2009-09-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

SIMIAN MOBILE DISCO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ):

2009-09-03T02:26:00.001+08:00

Hair needs to grow.

2009-09-01T02:10:00.002+08:00

i think the society's really stupid.
if youre too thin, everyone bitches about how anorexic you are and then if you happen to get fat they go eeeeeeeeeeeeeee shes fucking fat now.
so what the hell does the society wants...
I am contented with the way i look now. (:
yeah, papan, 2dimensional from the side. Yay.

2009-08-28T03:39:00.000+08:00

i stuff myself alot, i feel like im the turkey that gets stuffed for thanksgiving.
skrg perot aku da nak MELETOP.
SO DONT KILL ME IF IM STILL LOSING WEIGHT I DONT MEAN TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ):

2009-08-26T21:45:00.001+08:00

I seriously think I'm not shrinking.
Its just the shirt expanding.
Bye all.

For my number one.

2009-08-08T16:20:00.000+08:00

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone

2009-08-08T01:12:00.001+08:00

FACEBOOK TAKMO PERANGAI PUKI BOLEH KE TAK

AND STOP TAGGING UGLY PICTURES OF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG.

2009-08-01T12:54:00.000+08:00

Was this how everyone felt around the same time last year?
Studying without an end (Okay I'm lying, studying with an end in mind...)
but feeling like studying's inadequate and you're never there.
Hey you, see this line? You fall just below it.
And adding on to that, you're so round. Round. Ball. Mampat. Bye.

2009-07-26T23:12:00.001+08:00

GOD, PLEASE JUST MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE I CANT I CANT I REALLY CANT

2009-07-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS HAR! YOURE ONE BIG MOTHERFUCKING LOSER! CHEERS (:

2009-07-19T23:16:00.003+08:00

Everyone's getting attached! Lovebug in the air~~~~
And as for us, we're getting closer to 7777777777777777777 months, and never felt better!
(: I love you syg. You can call me papan/tak hot/tak sexy and i will still love you. Hahaha.

2009-07-19T14:09:00.002+08:00

People have ways to make me feel really small sometimes (no i dont mean literally...)
Josef tan says i look like wayne from wayne's world. wayne is MIKE MYERS. I DO NOT LOOK LIKE MIKE MYERS. THAT'S JUST SICK. WTF.

2009-07-19T12:43:00.001+08:00

aiyoh moderat coming. ): wo bo lui.............

current love

2009-07-18T15:25:00.000+08:00

2009-07-17T23:27:00.001+08:00

EH TOLONG AH
JUST FUCK OFF

2009-07-17T20:04:00.001+08:00

giving up.
omg prelims timetable is out... wtf....

2009-07-16T16:53:00.003+08:00

papan papan papan.
ok la aku papan.
fucking malas nak layan.
fml i don't need all these insecurities ok fuck you.
i'm just this fucking ugly girl who doesn't deserve things.
I DON'T NEED TO FEEL LIKE THIS
i want to be free.
and i need to study.

2009-07-12T03:41:00.001+08:00

just ate a whole lot of butter cookies, hello panda, croutons, keropok udang, down them with coffee...
yeah, you want your "hot 48kg gf" back. dont think i dont read your blog bitch.

2009-07-11T07:55:00.001+08:00

all eat no run, I AM A PIG.
HAAHAAAAAA im gna be my old weight in no time....

2009-07-09T22:25:00.003+08:00

today is officially the scariest day of my life.
i'm glad things are better, still hurts abit though.
anyway, more importantly. six months ago, we had no idea what would lie ahead of us.
and now look where we are. (:
OK NEED TO MUG GEOG BYE.

2009-07-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

the length of my hair is pissing me off, im tearing strands of hair during my ct papers!!!!
IM GNA CELEBRATE THIS FRIDAY WITH A HAIRCUT. sorry naim. hahahaha
i cant wait.............
haircut haircuttttttttttttttt!
friday friday!
HALF A. YEAR.!!! ^^

2009-06-28T10:09:00.001+08:00

yah... that's my boyfriend.

2009-06-28T08:03:00.002+08:00

that time of the month has become that time of 3months.
feeling very very tired. ):

2009-06-26T08:29:00.000+08:00

HAHA been eating alot with no exercise.
I HOPE PEOPLE ARE HAPPY.
fuck....

2009-06-22T23:55:00.001+08:00

I think I lost the drive to study... not that I had much to begin with.
And we live in a beautiful world~~~~

If you can't take a tackle, you should play table tennis.

2009-06-20T22:19:00.005+08:00

Severely strained ties with my mom...
Haha, she can go BUILD HER BERLIN WALL TO KEEP ME OUT OF THE ROOM
but may i remind her that she is sleeping on MY bed, sharing MY closet and everything else in the room is MINE.
Anyway, I've been feeling really happy for the past 24...36 hours or so, I hope it'll never end. (:
Last night was magical (and worth it, im not kidding) and this evening's nice.
Tomorrow shall be catching up with the buckssssss galzzzz, i think my skills are draining away from my fingertipsssssss....
Just so this post isn't just words...

Hehe siak, ni mcm aku nye standard pose gitu. OK I NEED TO GET THIS INTO MY THICK SKULL-ED HEAD... ONE WEEK LEFT!!!! I HOPE HOLIDAYS GET EXTENDED FOR REALLLLLLLL BYE.

2009-06-16T07:42:00.001+08:00

THE LIFE AS SOME AH MOI'S BF NOT FUNNY AH!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHA

2009-06-10T14:08:00.005+08:00

we're always telling ourselves that better times will come.
but in actual fact, i think things have been pretty good. (:
love you! happy 5thhhh!
i think i should abstain from kretek for awhile... its causing me gastric.

breaking point.

2009-06-07T19:25:00.002+08:00

you wake up feeling like shit about yourself all over again.
today's a bad day.
just a really bad day.

2009-06-06T17:23:00.000+08:00

don't you just miss the sec4 times? awwwwzzzzz (:

2009-06-05T15:44:00.001+08:00

1.5kg to go!

2009-06-05T15:31:00.001+08:00

I need a detox... too much caffeine, nicotine and too little sleep...
and j1s are spamming my inbox with pw surveys.

2009-06-03T21:54:00.001+08:00

I NEED SLEEP. I NEED NAIM. I NEED... more gudang i think.
ok sleep first. today is love yourself day. I WILL SLEEP SO MUCH YOU'LL SEE A BRAND NEW ME TMR. HAWHAWHAW GOODNIGHT!!!!

2009-06-01T13:39:00.001+08:00

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you
I love you
(:
Hehehehe soon it'll be five months. So surreal...

2009-06-01T11:45:00.000+08:00

my junki3 look is the in thing k.

2009-05-29T13:59:00.004+08:00

Aaaaaaah nothing beats staying at home when you feel like shit the whole week.
Last night they were talking about their badass trip to surabaya, mcm raditjani siak...
i.can.hardly.wait.for.all.this.shit.to.end. and have a trip down to jakarta!!!!!!
^^v with YOU :D
giler. gilerrrrr.

btw, i thank god its the holidays cause for the whole of term2 mr harris has been giving me THE LOOK its rly starting to freak me owtttt...

2009-05-28T16:06:00.002+08:00

Alright, maybe I need to blog this out to commit to it.
HARYANI NEEDS TO LOSE ANOTHER 3KG. damn it. fat bitch.
cheer me on.

2009-05-27T22:49:00.002+08:00

Naim if youre reading this I'm really sorry for the shit attitude I've been giving you, the on and off mood swings... You really don't deserve this. ): I'll get better, and we'll have our good times again, now that holidays are two days away, hopefully. Don't ever leave me I don't know what I'll do without you ):

2009-05-27T17:35:00.000+08:00

i need to stop disappointing myself.

2009-05-24T00:25:00.005+08:00

I think we're both lost for words.
But somehow I feel my life's pretty complete right now. (:
All I need to do now is get smarter and fitter. HAHA.
And anything's possible cause I have all the support I ever need.
Soon, it'll be our fifth and it still feels so surreal.

I don't know which part of me (not how MAN i am right...) or what I ever did to deserve you

but lets just drop the topic cause it doesn't really matter anymore.

I'm happy. (despite the cockroaches....)
things are so lovely lovely lovely. for now.
i live for days like this. GOOD TIMES WILL ROLLLLL~~~~
ps. looking at people play soccer MAKE MY LEGS ITCH. not literally la bodoh.

i wanna tell you how much i love you

2009-05-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

2009-05-20T18:56:00.002+08:00

I'm all geared up for tougher times ahead!
Hxc june hols with mugging and rugby,
and ct2 in late june-early july,
and NRC15's (OMG WTF 40MINS/HALF!!!) all throughout july, which is probably my last rugby games for the year...
and august is already ramadhan...
things are spinning out of control out of control out of control!
Need god, need naim, need my two boys (haha, my dad and bro), need my friends,
and maybe i still need a pet cat.
Ok outttt.

Armed with my passport and cash.

2009-05-17T10:26:00.004+08:00

I'm sure you always feel my eyes on you
but I hope that you will never feel unwanted
wait for me to move out (pasir ris) west
it's ok if you don't
I hope you know
you're my favorite thing
about the west ~~coast~~ side
I wish I stayed
I hope you wait
so here I am
counting down the days
till ~~california~~ malaysia comes

How light is a light

2009-05-13T21:50:00.006+08:00

I'm suffering from naim withdrawal symptoms...
I miss you ): You're probably the only thing keeping me sane these days.
I'm returning home to an empty house practically everyday, with no food, and just work and the running machine.
I want to watch angels and demons with you and mug at malaysia!
Alright, I can't believe mtv just played fever ray! AND my hp needs servicing, bluetooth is screwed and the wxyz key too... AND i need to pay my hsa fine asap.
AND! I'll link you since you link me too (: Don't think I didn't realise!
This post is filled with 'I's. I must be really selfish.
Night.

What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

2009-05-10T00:41:00.005+08:00

the past month is by far the most blissful, ok maybe it got a little depressing towards the end, but we pulled through, like we always do. things just keep getting better and better without us realising it and this is why i want to spend everyday with you, knowing that i'll always come home smiling (no, ni nye ikhlas bukan senyum plastic) And we, forever with no plans, forever wearing damn lepak clothes, forever going to the mama shop...
dont know what lies ahead but i know i want you to be by my side, especially when times are good.
happy fourthhhhhhhhhh, you just broke your personal record yet again (and i hope you'll never stop) ! hehe, kental boi, badan dah lah sekeping... SYG KAU!!!! :D

3 more days...

2009-05-07T16:50:00.004+08:00

Been quite out of it these few days... or weeks...
HAHA but im fine now!!! Just needed sleep.
SO NAIM, I DID NOT CATCH YOUR EMO BUG.
AND I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU.
OK DAH GILER... :)
Maybe its the weather. Or how we spent the entire break talking about trannies and bra size...
Times like these are tempting me to chop my hair off. Ok endure endure... rain will come soon.
And did i mention i think mothers day is really pointless? well i think its really pointless.
(inserts whole list on why its pointless)
k bye.

2009-05-04T05:35:00.001+08:00

Well the story's like this...
I woke up at 430 and I can't sleep.
Till now. Kkkkkk aku kental.

2009-05-03T14:50:00.001+08:00

2009-05-03T14:35:00.001+08:00

Aku cinta padamu sampai mati.
Nothing can ever make me hate you, except you hating me.
Cheer up, cause good days will come. you. just. wait.

2009-04-29T18:41:00.003+08:00

My eyebrows are growing mcm wild bush i seriously need to shape it...
In the meantime, eat sleep breathe rugby! I'm starting to really like the intense trainings. :D
Hehehe ok and I love you naim.
(dong pointed out sth today, wah, you two never fight before? nope...)

2009-04-26T14:14:00.002+08:00

My saved messages inbox has a limit!

So... 25th apr, 10:08pm,
I love you so much. For good moods or bad, for non-gatalness or otherwise, for sweaty or for dry, for muscular or not, pink or white. +++

sigh (:
EH ADE ORG TU CKP NAK FROLICK TAK FROLICK PUN...
(EHEMEHEMEHEM)
And i was happy to see all the cedarians again ((((:

2009-04-21T23:28:00.001+08:00

SO SICK OF TRYING TO PLEASE EVERYONE
make everyone feel better when i feel like shit inside.
such a loser.

2009-04-21T22:31:00.002+08:00

insecurities, insecurities getting to me.
and people are not making things any better.

2009-04-19T18:48:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY
watch! and go omg.

2009-04-19T14:59:00.001+08:00

Hehe gmbr semue burok...
OHWELL.
Syg I hope youre feeling better (and not so gatal anymore...)
today is HW DAY (WTF I HAVE HW DAYS NOW) aaaand boleh reply msg aku tak? irritating.

2009-04-18T12:36:00.002+08:00

Bruised but satisfied (:
Played our hearts out.
I'M A HAPPY GIRL
and I really love my dad. who wouldve known i'm daddy's little girl.... hahaha!
alright, I need my aloe vera now, and my favourite golden monkey ltr.
OWWWTTTTT. :D

Someone's 18!!! :D

2009-04-15T22:17:00.004+08:00

This is seriously outdated and written in really plain, boring grade E english but I'm really a happy girl although I'm BLACK NOW and everything's not really looking very good in the house.
Sometimes you just need that one special person to just drive you on. I'm sorry for spending such a short time with you on your 18th. You never fail to make me laugh, even when I was drinking the shittiest air badak ever on a very depressing night. HAHAHAHA. I love you. I love you so much that if I had a motor kapcai I will deliver your fav ramly burger to your doorstep every morning, plus PI PA MI. (:

Meeting you and this: - Har for playing hard and putting some very impressive tackles. and meeting the cedarmj gang (ok maybe only husna and mai) and hugging nurin and husna and seeing my wife on the field after being MIA FOR SO LONG... and getting musicfest tics!!! ...
REALLY MADE MY DAY! :D
Saturday here I come~~~~ & also may 16th!
ANW, SIDETRACK, aku confirm gelap nak mampos by mid may... mati...
I hope bucks will stay strong! :D
Ok enough shit, remember YOU ARE MUGGERDOG... MUGGERDOG..... MUGGERDOG....

2009-04-10T23:39:00.002+08:00

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time

You just remind me of this song. (:
Happy 3rd, Ily, and this is a really short and unmeaningful post but I'm gna sleep now!!!!!! You know I love you alot even though I keep dozing off without saying goodbye. Well... I dont really have to say goodbye cause I see you in my dreams. HAAAHAAAHAAAA OK BYE.

PS: ANDANDAND HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARIES. We're quite old now. Legal age to enter primary school. Huahuahua.

2009-04-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

2009-04-06T22:53:00.001+08:00

I don't wanna miss one day of your eyes and your smile
And everything else that I love, that I love (: